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ACT.59 - Lost faith in myself .

Well , i just watched initial d episode 13 and 14 .. 14 was the kinda sad and hilarious one ... it kinda brings back some feelings ... sometimes when u are going out with a girl .. and u thought it was going pretty well .. and suddenly the tables turn totally , maybe the truth could be hidden from you or something ..

ARrrrGGGhhh ... those feelings hurt ! i can recall the times when i get so disappointed or so hurt by what my ex gfs say ..

To think of it , i guess i still ain't ready for a relationship yet .. in fact , i was never ready for one . i never truely loved anyone b4 , i guess .

maybe i'm too immature for love , guess time makes me more mature as well ... Kinda lost faith in myself . that confidence i used to have in me , it's kinda gone now .

Currently , i'm not gonna go all out to woo any girls ... i would rather love come look for me , then seek for love itself . Besides , i always fear the bad outcomes , but then again , if you don try , then you might be losing a chance ... what a dilemma .. haha ..

i guess i'm too afraid to be hurt anymore ... well well , anyway , now no girl ... also don need talk so much ... i'm tired ... should be off to bed soon ...

posted by Ben @ 4/27/2005 12:23:00 AM