rockin' my world.

ACT.132 - One Chance .

i've realised .. it wasn't God's fault .
it's that people never gave me any chance .

today's morning was the same as the ones i've had last year .
Woke up , with a heavy heart .

this is bad . i really don't wanna go back to the past .

I think about what people say to me .

hmm , they made it sound like i'm a perfect bf .
they doubt me when i said i was single for 2 years running .

i don't know , but does it really take for an angel to save me ?
i've tried very hard .. to heal . and i know , time heals .
but the past is so far away , and i'm here today , still the same .

Maybe it's not the past that's hanging on to me . but faith is running out .

Still holding on , i will never let go .

i wanna lead my life , the happy me , back 3 years ago . i don't wanna smile and laugh when i'm outside , and when i come home , i realised , my heart isn't happy .

i love others more than i love myself .

i used to think ,that once i have a gf . she would be no.1 in my life , above of studies and all . silly me . no girl ever placed me no.1 in their lives .

i'm back to this zero degrees world . it's either i find a way to get back , if not ...

prayers . never work .

posted by Ben @ 7/31/2005 10:11:00 AM