rockin' my world.

ACT.152 - good guys and bad guys .

i just thrashed things out with my groupmates in my supply chain lesson .

i admitted , i have been a real bastard in this project . i was out to kill them in the presentation , well i din really PERFORM how cunning i can be , bcos .. i really can't do it .

but after what i have done ... guiltyness sips in .

nr ng asked me to give them the presentation . initially i said ok .

but after that , i say , " NO . i will not give it to them bcos i was the one staying up for the whole nite to do the shit . "

then after a little debate , i decided to give them the report , without the introduction , opinions and remarks ,recommendations and conclusion .

i gave them the answers to the questions , but i want them to relate the qns to the case study .....

This project proved something . i have failed as leader .

i have failed to get the group together , i have failed to get them moving . i didn't manage to utilise them , no matter how incooperative they were ,no matter how they sucked. i have failed everything of a leader .

This is the challenge of a leader . no matter what members u get for a project task , you have to utilise them and handle them . it's a superman job . and i still have a long way b4 that stage . even the people in the Apprentice , people from harvard , people from the best companies , they have failed that stage .


Oh crap , even doing something that isn't SO cunning , i feel so guilty . i think bout it ... the person to be blamed is me . my friends who did everything by themselves too ... they din voice out . they din say a thing .

Emotions got into my work and working behaviour . this is where i fail again as a good employee .

at the end of the day , there's 2 things to change .
separate emotions from work .
dare to lead .

there were so many things i could do actually , and i knew i shld do . but i just stepped back .... feeling bo chup and sick of them .

i've failed mr lai , ms tan and sir simon . for 4 years they have taught me bout leadership and i din execute that leadership i had in ncc .

i watched so many episodes of the Apprentice , Learned the mistakes , and din execute .


ng hong bin , if you wanna go far in life , if you wanna be successful , don't be a stupid crab in a hermit shell .

posted by Ben @ 8/12/2005 08:49:00 AM