rockin' my world.

ACT.262 - happiness .

hmmm , there's quite a few stuff i wanna say .

i have decided , not to go overseas university , cause i just can't fork out the cash myself without using my parents' cash . since bro gave the reminder that i shld never use their assets... i shall abide with it .

and yeah , u can never see me at NUS or NTU . i'm not of that caliber ... at least a SMU . and i'm gonna do a double degree , that's for sure . =)

well , i indeed envy those professionals of prestigious degrees , or majors in universities .. really . i know , i can't reach that level . i know .. i'm not smart . i'm really not .

But the fact that i'm not smart , doesn't give me or anyone out there the excuse of not working hard . Cause with that fact in mind , i wanna tell myself at the end of the day ... yes , i have did my best . i can only go this far , this is my peak . Then i'll give in to reality .

There's where motivation and determination plays a huge part. really they do . There's one thing called , building castles in the air . And that's what a lot of students are doing . claiming they will get a big apartment next time , 5Cs and shit . But they don't know what past the professionals who actually own these stuff , what they went thru . they went thru pure hard work .

Motivation . my motivation comes from u , FD .

I think if there was a God , god really planned it all . i did badly for my secondary sch , got into the worst class [ combined science ] , get bad grades for O's . But u see , if i scored better , i would enter Aeronautical eng . and that course wouldn't let me discover my personal potential . Logistics was actually the right choice , and i can't stop loving it everyday .

So i was building castles in the air in the past . All that talk about Automotive degree , Pro racer . it can't happen . First thing i know bout myself , i'm not good at mechanics . Never i was . i have zero talent in that field . i must admit ... it's such a pity when i love cars so much .

i have changed ... so much within this semester . so much .. until it becomes scary . like how i always described Technology , i always call technology scary .
i just wanna work hard ... as mum has said b4 , she wanna see the world . with dad of course . even if i'm a guy who never earn up to 5 digits , i'm gonna try my best .

Learning is a life issue . it's never too late to learn , it's never too late to turn over a new leaf . Learn as we grow , take obstacles as motivation . Not to let them over run you . But become stronger , not weaker . Learn to swallow ur pride , cause it frequently gets in your way .

one by one , my friends are gonna leave me . first gi kian , next jia en . best of luck .

and i pray for one friend , who chose that wrong path . i have done my best to reach out for u , but if u want to choose to learn things the hard way , it's your choice . but i hope at the end of the day , you will wake up ... from that fantasy world . this world is travelling at a fast pace , none can imagine . and if u slow down .. you will never catch up . remember , time is heartless , it never waits .

posted by Ben @ 10/18/2005 08:44:00 AM