rockin' my world.

ACT.283 - if only i understood all these earlier .

i started thinking back , on the events last year . i reflected . if only i understood all these earlier .

i always told may anne , you are immature . No , i'm wrong , i'm the f***ed up guy who's immature . there are many things i've failed to understand , which could have eased the obstacles around her , but , i made things worse .

And if only by then i understood all that earlier , i would have faced 2005 with that maturity level. But it was all too late .

Soul searching is so important . that i've realised .

haha , yesh may anne , i know u would tell me , don't bring up the past . no lah , i'm just merely reflecting .

i'm tired . it's hard ... for someone who doesn't have much of a social life , to dragonboat and gym everyday , and chiong his studies and projects . it's hard ... it's like .. i don get to enjoy my young days . the only enjoyment i get , is during or after training , when i hang out with my db mates. oh well .

haha , oh well . haha , and wen zhong don't be sad . it's merely somebody's case , and if it happened on u , wouldn't u be devastated ? Be prepared for such shit when u enter a relationship . Been there , done that .

3 times , my r/s , it's all been like that . that's why u told me , i think it's a very natural and common thing . If only the other party was stronger , she wouldn't be affected so much .

That's the trouble of love .


** i have a pretty good feeling , all that rollercoaster rides are gonna end . very soon .

posted by Ben @ 11/05/2005 11:11:00 PM