rockin' my world.

"Have you ever you ever reached a rainbow's end
And did you find your pot of gold
Ever catch a shooting star
Tell me how high did you soar
Ever felt like you were dreaming
Just to find that you're awake
Cause the magic that surrounds you
Will lift you up and guide you on your way

I can see it in the stars across the sky
Dreamt a hundred thousand dreams before
Now I finally realize
You See I've waited all my life for this moment to arrive
And finally ..

I believe in the impossible
If I reach deep within my heart
Overcome any obstacle
Won't let this dream fall apart
See I strive to be the very best
Shine my light for all to see
Cause anything is possible
When you believe... "
- i Believe . Fantasia Barrino ( American Idol )

i'm feeling better everyday .. i do not hog on to that pain in my heart anymore .. my spirit gets better everyday .. No more Nightmares ! i'm closer to the stage of starting a new life .. really Glad all is over . That i finally let everything go .

But .. i was a little worried over my bro . U see , i was chatting halfway on msn then he told me he needed to use the net bcos he just had a tiff with his gf .. then i was like " wah kao , i haven't been using the net for quite some time thanks to him and finally when i have time then u ... " so i delayed for more time ..

Then he came over , and showed me a msg on his hp , telling me that they are breaking up of something .. i was so shocked ! then i quickly said byes to my friends and left as soon as possible .. hope everything is all right .. u guys gone thru so much , loved each other deeply and my parents like her so much too ... if i was my bro , i would do everything to get her back .

hmm , but today when he woke up , he seems like he's fine .. he's the normal guy who wakes up in the morning .. haha , hope all is fine !

Glad that my family is in the state it is today .. no more quarrelling , no more suprises , no more problems . I promised them to work hard , i told them i'm gonna be a pilot .. so i can give them a good life . but Mum just told me .. that money wasn't everything .. they don't ask for a luxury life .. they just wanna get on with life happily ... -__- ?? haha , cause i told her , that i wanna get Dad a Benz , i said , he suffered so much for the family all these years , and he always admired Jaguar and Benz all that .. so i guess , i want him to have a luxury car once in his life .. so i have to work hard ! and i promised myself a rx-7 , it's my dream . So , it's for myself too !

Well , it's not for me or my family only , it's for my wife and kids too ! haha .. too far le ba ? i just don't want them to go thru the hard life i have , i want them to be happy , don't need to worry bout the money problem ..

haha .. what wife .. i have been single for such a long time liao .. haha , talk bout Gf first la .. , well , hope Heaven is with me this time ard ! haha ..

U guys gotta be thinking , why i have so many chances with girls , when they come ask for my no. ( haha , i know , not a lot of girls come ask for my no. la ) but , i'm someone who wanna take it slow , i don't wanna see got girl liao arh , then i chiong for her or what one .. i wanna know her , know her better .. and of course she must be someone i like too ..

Well , class gonna start liao , blog soon again ..

posted by Ben @ 9/06/2004 01:47:00 PM