rockin' my world.

Turning pt of my life . ~
hmm , now in school's library , my friends went off for lunch and left me alone .. and one entire group of girls came in the same project room .. and now i feel so weird , cause i'm the only guy here ? when guys walk past , they will be like .. cursing me ? haha .. ~ at the beginning , it was only 2 girls , asking whether they could use the table .. then came in like .. 8 -10 girls ? haha .. ~ i thought they were gonna talk bout project or what .. then .. they started talking bout Elva ? Then don't know who ... Music ? what the heck .. ~ Doing EALS tutorial now .. wanna quickly revise my work .. i don't wanna fail this semester . Guess there is always a big change in every institution . Like how we handled sec sch when we just grad from primary sch , history's repeating . like also when i changed workplaces too .. ~ Missed HSBC a little .. missed my officer Amos . Talking bout my senior could be an alien ? and more .. i missed the times when i always buy newspaper, coffee and breakfast , and sit down and read the newspapers and commenting bout the world . ~ Now i don't even have time to read newspapers . No more time to play online games . No more time to watch TV . But Singapore Idol can't be missed . guessed i only watch that show ? haha .. ~ now they are talkin bout zhou jie lun .. new cd ? S$19.90 ? ~ Going to the gym today after sch , can't wait to work it all out man .. ~ So now they are still talking bout music .. now playing music . What's up with them man ? ~
so May Anne have u decided ? i tell u one thing's for sure , he ain't gonna change . i guess it's because he have many commitments and he balanced it all , i mean , NCC and U , he could have placed it at the same pt in his life . so u know what i mean ? ~ and i'm pretty suprised that until now , u still didn't make a decision . Ever relate back to why , u and i , are apart right now ? Ever think why we ain't even friends right now ? it could be stupid reasons but he was one of those reasons . But at such a status right now , u still don't agree with what i have said all this while ? i mean .. don't u feel guilty that this relationship doesn't work out , that u chosen him over me ( as a best friend and a friend ) . u allowed him to destroyed it all and see what's happening ? u get what i mean ? anyway , wish u all the best . whatever happen , it's fate . Don't be disappointed with ur life . with the guys u met . Don't think that ur life is rotten . cause u are the one that can make it turn ard . ~ a lot has happened in my life , i still don't know what kind of life i am leading . i still don't know my purpose . i need to find the answer . ~ Oh , they are still talking and talking ,playing HPs and playing music .. my my , they came all the way here to do this ?? ~ oh ya , my seniors forced me to join some community project and have to do dance .. DANCE ? i haven't done that for 3 years ? or 2 years ? my body ain't that flexible to move that good any more man .. and i have intensive DRAGON boat training around that time ! seems like i can't take a breather even during the holidays .. ~ oh , how come my brother seems so nice now anyway ? oh well , i don't care . ~ where are my friends ?! i have been stuck with these girls for so long ! and i need help on my tutorial too .. well ,blogging off le ..

posted by Ben @ 8/11/2004 12:03:00 PM