rockin' my world.

ACT.62 - Hero.

It's a long road .
And you face the world alone.
No one reaches out a hand ,
for you to hold .

You can find love ,
if you search within urself
and that emptiness you felt will disappear .
If you look inside your heart,
you don't have to be afraid of what you are .
There's an answer
if you reach into ur soul.

And the sorrow that you know , will melt away.

And then a hero comes along ,
With the strength to carry on .
And you casts ur fears aside ,
and you know u can survive.
So when u feel like hope is gone ,
Look inside you and be strong .

And when u finally see the truth
that a hero lies in you .


Just came back from DB .. had fitness test today .. my running improved .. situps remain ... kinda ok that i ran 9.20 ... but i was some how not satisfied .. cause the person in front of me ran 9.00 ... i felt so lousy .. i've gotta work harder ..

Feeling a little unhappy .. i'm not too sure ... it's like something is missing from my life .. i missed the times when i spend my nights chatting on the phone with may anne or angelia .. i miss chatting on the phone . i miss my friends . i miss my ncc times . i miss the times of a kid , of a secondary sch kid . why i was so complacent in the past .

Dad asked me , why i work so long , i nv even bring a cent back . i'm not too sure also .. i'm so stingy with every cent i earn . why am i so unlike my bro , the first time he worked when he was sec 3 , he bought me my nike bag .. and it's $50 bucks , imagine that out of a 3 days pay ..

i don't know what's with me . why i can't appreciate my parents ,my family . Why am i so selfish . Why can i be a ruthless selfish bastards when it comes to personal interests ... why can i do such cruel stuff when the opportunity comes , is my heart black ? i guess my class mates know .. i can be really be a bastard or be so cruel with my actions ...

guess it's time to do some reflections . it's no wonder i'm still single , and why i didn't have a nice experience .

I always make myself lose everything . Angelia , then Came May Anne . then i start to blame them , or blame heaven , but not myself . although we are friends once again .. things ain't the same .

what kind of person am i ... i always thought i was the perfect partner for any girl ... really i had such thoughts in the past , but boy i was wrong .

TTM ? ya ... just gotta find that missing item in my life . i need someone to complete my life . i need a hero to save me . .

posted by Ben @ 5/05/2005 11:29:00 PM