rockin' my world.

ACT.160 - Defying Reality .

what ShiFu told me has become a guideline for me . and i've realised ... that what she said , is true . the image of the mystery jigsaw puzzle is starting to form . damn , i hate it , but i can't defy .

since i was told of my destiny , might as well accept it . Better than nothing though .

i've been thinking , like what i've said , the career focused life ?

Life will be all bout career , family and friends , nothing else . No love no nothing . if girls don't appreciate me , so be it . my decision won't be changed once it's made .

I'm really really reluctant to decide . but , nothing should come b4 studies isn't it ? i know i know .. but it's just within me , that my girlfriend would be placed on top of everything else .

oh well , once i make a decision , it'll solidfy .

i shall be happy once again . although no one tells me that they really hope to see a happy me or so on . i'll live for myself and for my family , no one else . i'll be happy for myself and for them . i'll start loving myself , and loving them .

my family is all i've got , and i thank god for them .


Been thinking too much today , just let me be . i hope i'll be able to wake up as per normal tomorrow and not having those shitty morning wake ups . Be the real happy me from today onwards , you have to .

i once lost myself , and i'll never let go of myself again .

posted by Ben @ 8/17/2005 01:57:00 AM