rockin' my world.

ACT.297 - left unsaid .

1 more day to Regatta . a few more hours to my basic theory test . i haven't study well enuf , and i can't lose out on my first try .

arrrrrggghh , fuck it . my dad actually so supportive of me going for car license . now i have to get $$ from my mum to pay . it was all my dad .... how come it's not him paying ? i know , she's earning peanuts , how can i have the heart to take from her . i feel the heartbreak for her . but my heart's burning desire to drive is raging . do i wait it out ? or do i go with it ? or do i pay for it myself ? i'm freaking broke . i'm gonna get my pay tomorrow , and i know it's already gone .

fuck . fuck it all .

i'm going mad . i was this close ... to be closer to automotive .


i'm a fucking broke arse . if i ever have any gf now .. i bet she's gonna suffer . I don't know whether it's my allowance to little , or just that i'm the messed up guy .


hai ... i feel the heartache for my mum . she's willing to do anything for her son . her once so fucked up son .

i wish i'm one of the smart and lucky guys , to already start making it big when they are in poly only . like that IBM guy , who can even buy a BMW during year 3.

if only .

posted by Ben @ 11/25/2005 12:03:00 AM