rockin' my world.

ACT.477 - Hate me .

I don't know whether it's my confidence or ego killed me .

i just recieved news from benjamin that lufthansa made their selection , it wasn't me. sometimes , i just don't get it . In such things , why do i lose out when i ain't supposed to .

it's been happening since my kiddy days.

now i'm stuck in a society , where they can't even judge who's good , who's bad , lecturers , professionals even. can it be that bad ... really ?

there u go , god is never with me. ok , or rather according to my belief with no existence of god , my LUCK is fucked up to the max.

so i'm just waiting for a day , to get killed or something , knocked down by a speeding car or something like that , make it peaceful all right ? or whatever style u want . bloody or gore . whatever .

my optimistic thinking is gone. confidence is lost.

i guess i'll slip into the past again . where i can't love myself.


for my dearest friends out there , don't tag in response to this entry especially telling me to look on the bright side or worse , tell me something about God . thanks a lot .

posted by Ben @ 8/14/2006 05:28:00 PM