rockin' my world.

ACT.484 - incidents that make a man's heart blacker.

2 papers down , 2 to go . MEMORISING PAPERS . this is where i really hate.

haha , i was so gan chiong about OPC today , cause it was so tough , and i spent so much time on calculations , i did almost nothing about theory . haha , i was so stressed and all before the paper , but it turned out ok. =) i'm glad . WSS was great as well .

friday will soon be over . haha , that's always my consolation to myself , when i dun have enuf sleep or when i'm already so tired that i can't go on anymore , i will tell myself , these 5 days or whatever is gonna be over soon. JUST HANG ON .

haha , it's the same theory , when u think about your weekends being over so FAST. or the public holidays as well .

anyway , Mum was a little upset over my bro , being depressed over the breakup. cause we all saw through , how much effort my bro has put into the r/s , learning a guitar song , practicising a particular song , making her nice and memorable sketch books about them , and i don't know what else of crazy stuff he has done .

then Dad thinks , maybe it's because our family ain't well off , we ain't rich and all.

this topic has kind of brought my family closer , haha , i didn't mean that the breakup was good , but at least my mum knows the reasons behind me , for being reluctant about girls and all. i'm such a scaredy boy , i dare to take a huge step in anything , but not love. i'll probably hide under a blanket everytime i hear about it . haha .

in 2003. i lost faith . only in 2005 , i opened up my heart again , to get myself hurt again . and again . and again .

well , that's why i say , it's such f***ed up incidents that make a man's heart blacker. that we men no longer wanna put effort into the r/s anymore or make commiments .

anyway , it's probably one of the last times i'm gonna see my poly mates until a good 5 months away.

frankly speaking, 3 years passed fast , and i can't forget my first time seeing them . I WAS DAMN FREAKED OUT WHEN i saw the girls ok. they are so LOUD , i would die under those immense decibels created.

haha , they're crazy lah.

5 months , graduate , hopefully with results that can bring me to uni . can't wait .

but 5 mths passed by so quickly , that means REGATTA will come damn fast .

and absolutely no more time , after exams , i must really work it. =) for the dream we promised ourselves.

posted by Ben @ 8/22/2006 11:54:00 PM