rockin' my world.

A new life ? A life full of challenges ahead .. ~ my life is becoming more busy .. Have projects to do .. homework .. gotta spend time with my buds .. spend time with family .. ~ S&W on thursday was a killer . My back is seriously aching after the training .. Have dragonboat training from next week's onwards .. can i endure for 3 years ? or will i back out soon .. hope i can perservere ... ~ Love Love Love . so where is the Cupid angel pointing at ? well i don't know .. guess love is cannot be rushed anyway . Fate . Destiny . Hope . ~ Well .. no one can change one's fate when something has already happened .. right ? but sometimes .. god decides ur fate .. ~ So what type of person i'll be next time ? will i be a pilot who i really wish to be ? or will i go into the line i'm doing now .. or will i be someone else ? these are qn's bout my future which everyone wants to know bout their's .. ~ will i ever find the love of my life ? i always said i want someone to love .. but when she comes .. why is it always be myself who drives her away ? is that my destiny ? nv be able to have anyone ... ~ But when i have someone .. i have so many frustrations .. why is this so ? then isn't it as good as having no one ... ~ Spiderman 2 . a meaningful show .. but , just didn't meet the expectations i have for it .. but it's not bad . " with great power , comes great responsibilty . Given the gift . " " why is it that no matter how hard i try .. it would be the ones who i love who suffers ... " ~ Solitaire .. this song still stays in my heart . really love it ... perhaps it has real special meaning to me .. ~ oh , wanna take care of myself real well b4 i go into intensive schedule .. wanna go for a dental checkup to find out what is really wrong with my teeth .. a full body checkup cause there may be something wrong with me .. but hope i'll be fine . :) ~ actually last night , i had the urge to sms or call may anne ... i don't know why .. perhaps to catch up with her .. whatever is happening round her .. is it that , i still care ? that she's still my best friend ? but i still can't forgive her .. i need time . ~ Having dreams almost everyday . Fantasies that i never dreamt b4 . what is going on ? why the dreams portrait a daring and brave me ? or weirder stuff .. why did i lost my mind ? why did i lose my friends ? i can't recall much .. but soon the answer will come . What's going on ? ~ i'm working pretty hard now . aiming for Finland attachment next year .. aiming for University after NS . Singapore , Australia or England . Pilot in US . Automotive engineering in Australia . just hope to give my family a real good life ... ~ Guess .. all my friends are caught in the game of love , i mean some .. the qn would be Why . isn't it ? no one knows why .. except u . ~ Changing. a changing world . People change . one by one... gone . ~ i don't know why i'm saying such weird stuff anyway .. perhaps .. i'm losing my mind or that i wanna start afresh . i wanna forget bout all the bad things and move on . Don't care what people say , don't care whether i have a gf or not . all i need is my family and friends... all that i need .

posted by Ben @ 7/09/2004 01:41:00 PM