rockin' my world.

ACT. 12 - Lost in a Fantasy World .

Just changed the skin and stuff ... cool ? haha , actually wanted to Put RE Amemiya Rx-7 as the background .. but can't get it to work .. so just anyhow sub one Initial D , Takumi VS Ryosuke one in ...

Loaded a load of pics right below .. haha , The Satan Rules Pic .. is just for fun .. i was so bo liao in sch that i typed Satan rules in the image search engine and this came up ... haha , i read bout it , it's a guy at his office thingy and his friend pasted this at his door ... haha .. So i decided put this up cause it's kinda comical ... haha , from all the weird pics , i think u guys probably guessed i'm a mad guy with mad friends ...

Hmm , Dragonboat again today ... Open hse as well , didn't see any familar faces .. but i went the recruitment drive Army there to ask bout a Bond / scheme , cause it could bring me extra cash and link me directly to the pilot career .. unfortunately , there ain't any officers Bonds and of course , pilot scheme . So it's out of the question to sign any cause i know , i'm gonna regret it . Yawnx .. life's tough .

Guess what again ? Gonna be lonely on Valentine's day i guess ... Except for hanging out with either my Buddies or my classmates .. A group of guys Dating once again .. haha ... can't believe i'm single for almost 2 years ... haha , just kinda getting used to life being alone ...

Well , the patient search still continues , never giving up ... Maybe this is the time to sort my thoughts and set my career on route .. if not , if my girl comes by , it could affect me instead of help me ... I'm no multitask man . Gotta put all my concentration into what i'm doing and don't let other things distract me ...

But Sad lahx ... never really get to enjoy a day of Valentine's day with my loved one .... Christmas also !! Why my life so like that ... Haha ... Waiting goes on ..

Hmm , i suddenly felt lost this afternoon too ... i don feel like myself . I'm getting more blur in my thinking as well , can't be decisive anymore , can't decide or lead anymore , lost that firmness and discipline in me ... What's wrong ?

When i was ard the sch , these people passed me a brochure on Tsunami .. at first i tot i was tsunami .. then i read it after DB on the way back home ... it was A christian Shit . When i read the Questions they posted " Where was God during the times blah blah blah ... " And some other stuff , i tot they had the same thinking as me .. but their reply to those question were utter bullshit ... Then last page still say , how to become a Christian ....

Man , i'm gonna stick to my Genes man !! u can call me anti christ or whatever it is ... I believe in Myself , and i believe where i am is because i chose to be here , what i did , not bcos of God . And i don't give credit to him cause i done things myself . And i shan't forget these Tragic incidents of pain , suffering and devastation . IF God was here , get him to talk to me . I'd like to know why he creates a world to end it in the end .

Anyway , if u want something or like something , i think you should pursue it and not let it end there . If u like someone , u may wanna get closer to the person and not wait for the skies to turn black or for heaven to feed u . Or If u wanna be a celebrity or something , u don't just stay seated forever in ur life . U stand up and do something bout it , and get yourself a chance or grab one . Moral of the story is : Don't wait for something to happen , make it happen .

posted by Ben @ 1/20/2005 10:52:00 PM