rockin' my world.

ACT.66 - Reality defies .

Thoughts running through my head .

i suddenly feel so lost . i can't catch up with my friends anymore . no matter how hard i try , i can't .

I wonder why i always have such personal and emotional problems in my life . from p6 , til now .

in p6 , Mrs Lee Goy asked us to write bout our best friends in our journals ... everybody had a best friend in mind , so does the opposite party , they wrote bout each other . i had no one . i had someone in mind , but no matter how hard i try , or no matter how close we were as friends , i'm not one in his my mind .

i feel like a fool . i felt like i'm all alone in this world , i can't find anyone i really really can confide in . sometimes no matter how hard i try , it just doesn't work out .

i feel like i only have my family . but what's a man with no bestest friends ?

i'm somehow always left out . When my friends come together and went out , they miss me out sometimes . in fact , most of the times .

No matter where i go , i'm laughed at . No one ever told me that they really appreciate me . sincerely . No one would tell me "i'm always behind u . " only my family . Thank Heaven for Mum , and Bro esp .

i hope what the shi fu told me is true . Lonelines sips in every now and then . i can't stand alone anymore .

posted by Ben @ 5/24/2005 11:16:00 PM