rockin' my world.

ACT.405 - the good guys get burnt.

so i get the idea now . i think about it , lying on my bed . staring at the ceiling wide awake . i don know what the fuck happened , or what wrong did my guy did .

I couldn't get it off my mind . even on the way to the doctor's .

Finally , i understand . so it's a trend eh ? or is it a curse ?

ruling out all the possibilities , i've realised . it's the good guys who get burnt and hurt . all . not even one spared .

no , i'm ok . i'm just worried about a friend . a buddy . June Race is coming . there's no time to lose . there's not even a second to lose track . and i know , the more he keeps it inside , the more he will go mad .

it's ok if it's just me who gets the shit . but not my buddies . they don't fucking deserve this bullshit from girls . who said the men are players . fuck u all .

arrrrrggghh . anger is taking over me . i know i'm in no right to comment on anything , cause i know nothing at all . But it's just boiling down inside me . and hatred is once again taking its place.

ben , you've gotta chill . if not this freaking guy will go bonkers.

I was looking forward for you to be in the boat with us in June Race . But you tell me , you're giving it up for now. I know , your world is in a frenzy right now , it's almost crazy . Well , i tell ya , fuck it all . I wish to help u , but if u refused to open up , there's nothing i can do .

it really breaks me within to see my dearest friend in such a situation .


u can take it from me . i've been thru it all .

wah , i can't take it , CHAO CHEE BYE . WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON THIS FUCKING WORLD . KNN . i'm going bonkers. FUCK . if whoever up there , whether it's god or guan yin or whatever FUCK SHIT , it's enuf if u wanna take it on me . WHY ALL MY FRIENDS ALL FUCKING GET IT ?


Ting xian went through so much shit . that's one . FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND .

Edwin leong fucking got played for a year ongoing . that's 2 . FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND .

Denny got brought into a spinning whirlwind world for so long . that's 3 . KAN NI NA .

so much more . and the fact we are just fucking 18 , we don't deserve it .


how many times do you have to break my heart , seeing my friends , again and again , getting played by girls . they were never winners in this god damned game .

god damn you .

our lives don't end here . there's no other option other than moving on . i know there are so many questions left unanswered , i know all this is almost crazy . i'm right here if you need me .

posted by Ben @ 5/02/2006 10:26:00 PM