rockin' my world.

The road of misery . ~ i hate POLY LIFE ! i wish i can go back to sec sch .. what's
up man ? is poly supposed to be this BUSY ?! u know , i'm so busy that i haven't even went out , hanging out or even walking in orchard road with my friends , what the hell ! it's have been a month and a half , and i didn't even go out all this time ! all i do on sundays are to stay at home to do homework and projects , what the heck ! ~ With this type of schedule /life , i can never even have time for my gf , if one comes by that is , i don't wanna let go of dragon boat and i want time
for myself too ! how am i supposed to deal with this .. ~ What's up with my poly man ? giving us so much tutorials , projects , tests ! i wannna breathe for once .. ~ in this case , i rather be working ! i thought i was so sick of working and i rather be studying but no way man ! poly is stressing me out ! u know what ? I RATHER go to the army right now man ! ~ I'm so in need of time right now ,24 hrs is not ENUF ! i need to study , i need to do my tutorials , i need to to do my projects , i need to train my body , and i need to BREATHE ! ~ So , is it always that when u girls reject me or sth , u have to hate me or bear a grudge against me ?
~ i really don't know what i was doing ya know . I spend time cracking my brain to think of romantic incredible ways to spend birthdays with them and what do i get ? i mean that's not all ... whatever , anyway , feelings cannot be helped too .. i'm just so sick of life . ~ the other time i blogged in such a long blog and damn it , there was a problem with the admin of blogger , then it was all ..GONE ??!! seems like , i don't have any good confidiants , nor i can express myself in my blog . ~ i'm so sick of life .. so sick . is poly supposed to be like this ? i still have my dreams .. and everyday through poly life , i realised that i'm no smart guy .i'm a dumb ass instead . i cannot even understand such normal stuff of basic diploma , how am i supposed to earn big bucks to get a rx-7 ? Guess i'm not a person for the business industry or the logistics industry . i should be in aerospace or aeronautical .. ~ People always say they will be here for me , they always here to share my joy , share my downs , lend a listening ear , but they nv remember my birthdays , they never ever asked how i was , they never ever msg me in msn , they never ever sms me to find out whether i was alive and kicking .. ~ Friends are created to be forgotten ? if this is true , then what kind of world this is ? ~ God created humans , to go to heaven , and hell . What kind of a selfish God he is .. He created us to believe in him , if not , to hell we go ? this is a stupid world . ~
I need time , i realised how important is time . Precious time . ~ Amazed and mesmerized by u . i wish to get close to u , feel u. But you're on the other side of the world .

posted by Ben @ 8/10/2004 08:38:00 AM