rockin' my world.

ACT.16 +17 [ add on ]- Back at One .

Well , i have all of a sudden felt like i'm back at One . I realised that sometimes , things are just irreversible , once you lost it all , u can't get it back . Same goes for chances , they come one time , and they never come back again .

I really missed the times in secondary school days . i missed the times with andy , derrick and edwin , the ncc dudes especially . Where we would hang out at Changi airport .. play monopoly ... ride on the trolley ... Sprint from one end to the other , even have picnic there ...

If i could turn back time , i would . i wanna start a new life . as a brand new child . i've made many mistakes ... I wanna cherish those times with my ncc pals and buddies ... b4 each of us change into someone else ...

I wanna rescue her b4 everything started . So she doesn't have to go through any pain and suffering . I wanna study hard , make Dad and Mum proud . I wanna hold on to the chances i had tight when i had someone in my heart ..

But life goes on i guess .

14 Feb Valentine's day , guess it'll be another bachelor nite with the guys again ... haha .. PAthetic .

Time sure passes by very quickly . Gotta wake up to reality soon ...

Ytd , bro went missing for a time period ... he didn't bring his hp , or even his keys out ... then it suddenly hit me , if something happens to him , what will happen ?

He is one bro i really love , although sometimes he might treat me very bad , scold me or whack me , he's still my one and only Bro . So i start to imagine the day he'll be gone , i can't picture it .

You can say i'm worried for him yesterday .

Starting to feel that .. i have no one to confide in ... although i have entered poly .. life didn't change ... i've made new friends .. but the fact didn't change .

Are my wounds still there ? must it really take an angel to heal them ? i wanna free myself from the past ...

" No matter how hard i try , i can't catch up ... everyone's ahead .... " FF8 - Rinoa

Sometimes , no matter how hard i try ... things don't work out ...

My lecturer is right , humans have to interact .. they can't live on their own . i can imagine people who lead solitaire lives ...

Well ... i guess tomorrow's gonna be a better day .. Alex got something up for me .. can't wait !

posted by Ben @ 1/26/2005 11:16:00 PM