rockin' my world.

ACT.538 - before and after.

i went out with owen and cousin , ervin , jun wei and his girl , qijia . We had loads of fun today at geylang chatting and all that .... and we talked a lot today about relationships as well .

Getting over someone is just so hard . isn't it ?

Haha , after all that serious talk , i've realised , i really changed a lot . I'm no longer that weak boy who was emotional over relationships and all that . My mindset has changed . My priorities have shifted. and I think May Anne , you witnessed all that didn't you ? haha . You came into my life at the prime time and since then , you know what happened exactly to me , what did i went through .

and yeap , you're my guardian angel . You know what was going right , what was going wrong . just by your instincts. and you judged this time , everything was right . You're right , she's a very nice girl .

All the talk reminded me of all that pain i went through in the past . Being emotionally weak , i took things very hard . well , you can witness of all that in takumi_14.easyjournal.com . I got hit so hard when i realised my family's financial status was like shit , when someone left me and all that .

It didn't help when i was hurt for a long time and finally opened up my heart in year 2 , yet again , got hit big time again. and again in year 3. It was so harsh that i still feel the pain right here inside .

haha , and then , i started blaming god for all this happenings on me . I blamed God every single day , because of everything . My heartaches , my troubles , my worries.

But i didn't realised that all these pain made me a much stronger person today . a much independent person today . A guy that a girl could rely on . Not like the past , i was just a freaking burden to anybody.

Well , i'm really grateful of that . =) although i think my luck has ran out lately .

but i'm glad i went through all these obstacles in life , to make me prepared for the tougher path ahead . and thank you May Anne , you've been there .

and finally , the singlehood membership of 4 years have ended . i met someone nice and sparks just flew.

posted by Ben @ 6/02/2007 04:05:00 AM