rockin' my world.

i really wish ...to go to somewhere ..preferably the beach ..with someone ...and cry it all out ... cos i just feel so much pain .. so lost ... so hurt .. that i wanna cry is also not good ..cos my eyes are getting red everyday and swollen .... so i hope .. the suitable someone will come by .. but now .. i think adelene is the best for the job ..cos she trys to understand.. and shares my tots and views. the song " how did i fall in love with u " plays in my heart ... cause it really describes me quite a bit .... i really don't wanna be alone .. tonight ... My temper goes off very easily ..that my mum just say me for a while .. and i can give her some F*** up attitude .. what's this ... didn't i promised that i cherish them from that very day onwards ? but sorry .. i really can't control it . i get very moody sometimes ... spoiling everyone's mood .. i see everyone pretty happy yet i can't feel the same with them . a Spoiler . it's so sad ... Haiz .. that u can't love me .. or dun even love me .... if there's so much u mind .. i have nothing to say ... i can't do anything .... i really feel pretty troubled when i'm with u ... i hope that .. there will be one day .. that i could hold your hand ..and run away ..to a world with no cruelty .... where we would be so carefree . but .... in time .. the answer will come .. and ...it seems like it's not on my side ..... life is just so disappointing . They say .. you don't care who they are ... dun care how they look .. don't care where they are from .. as long as love him/her .. nothing matters .. so i dun really understand this ..... i hate what i'm feeling . is it ..the undesirable solution ..to end all this pain ? i really hope not ...

posted by Ben @ 1/13/2004 10:47:00 PM