rockin' my world.

My heart has broken .. ~ I have lost that flame in my heart .. all cold .... The answer is coming nearer .. so it seems like .. i'm loving someone for nothing .. and it's so sad ... And you say i'm a step too late .. it's never too late when V day still hasn't come ... only whether u mean to spend that day with me .. seems like u don't ... it's all right ... tears will flow ... wounds will deepen .... ~ That ray of hope is becoming smaller .. i don't understand .. all that i did ... didn't it touched u at all ? i'm going mad .. i drive myself crazy .. thinking of u ..... ~ i'm really not satisfied .. Why do i have to look for another date .. why do i have to spend Valentine's day with someone i don't love ... wHY !! i'm a pathetic soul .. really i am .. i pity myself .. that the end of my story ends like this ... ~ i'm tired ... for saying so much yet u dun budge ... your heart does not wake up .. now i know ..my heart has broken .. has absorbed so much damage for nothing ... really .. ain't i a failure ... i'm really a fool .... again and again .. i'm always the fool ... Cried endless nights ... for what ? i hold on .. for what ? REally ... FOR WHAT ??? just bcos i love u , just this fact . and u never seem to understand .... and what am i supposed to do ? Giving u up .. is like giving the world up ... how can u ask me to give the world up ? i rather die ... seriously .. than to live in a world without u ... ~ Valentine's day ... let me alone .. i have no choice .... i will cry .. cry ... and just pray ..pray to God ... beg him .. be on my knees .. to bring u to me .... Let me die .. let me die on that day ... ~ Yes .. i have become a man with no soul ... i have lost all that warmth i once had in my heart.. I can't breathe ..when my heart is broke in 2 ... nightmares haunt me .... Sleepless nights have got me bad .. ~ So GOd tell me ... is my story gonna end here ? My chapter ends here isn't it ? Yes .. with such a sad ending ... ~ i try to be a perfect man for you ... and now i ask myself again ..for what ? For what ? really ... for what ? i'm already on my knees ... there's nothing more i can do .. i'm going mad .... ~ No one is here to stand with me ... i'm all alone .. so what if she's not worth it ? i don't care !! I don't care ! She's who i love .. how can u ask me to give up who i love deeply .. truely ?!! i rather take thousands of swords in my heart than do that ... but now .. i'm so helpless ... so helpless . there's nothing more i can do .. Death is not the way i wanna go .. but heaven is pushing me there ... yes .. i'm only 16 +.. People don't understand the love i have for u ... whenever i think .. it will be of you .. nothing else . i will never be happy ... i will never be the guy all of u know .. take it that i never existed .... forget me .. forget the old me .. he will never never come back ! no miracle or angel will come by .. since that ray of hope becomes smaller ... no ... Swear .. each time and each time .. i swear ... each time and each time .. i cry . I promise . I pray . i hope . ~ Goodbye ... Ben will never come back .... he's trapped in a world far away ..

posted by Ben @ 1/27/2004 06:10:00 PM