rockin' my world.

So how am i ? i wouldn't say i'm going well ..or i ain't . ~ it's almost ... 2 mths right ? that since we saw each other or meet up .. never seen u ever since that day .. Ur present is still here .. untouched ... i just wanna hand u that letter i have written for you .. V day card ... ~ i don't really know what's going on in your life .. u don't really know what's going on in mine ... is it better this way ? Do you still want me back ? ~ will things be better now if at that pt of time i have forgiven u ? or will things be the same as b4 .. these are the qns i wanna know ... Definitely .. my life is going pretty smoothly now ... but ..~ Best Friends .. i have erased that history of us , once best friends .. that no longer exists in my mind .... i never once had a best friend . Never .... ~ Remember the days 5 years back ... how we knew each other .. how i would call u everyday ... how cheerful i wa way back then ... would laugh very loud .. jump around like a primary school kid .. isn't it ? Those days are over ... i'm a totally different man .. i do not have that spirit in me anymore ... ~ it was a mistake to fall for you isn't it ? yes .. i agree and i don't agree ...if i didn't .. we wouldn't have to go thru so much pain ... i would have been there for u .. no matter what u did ... not being there for u , unsupportive of what u do ... ~ but it was not really a mistake .. bcos it made me see thru u ... ~ do you still hold on to that hope ? that i'll be back in one day ,someday ? Yes .. i have always taught u .. never to give up .. to have that determination even if the chances are 1% .. ~ All i wanna do and care now .. is to work hard in my new school .... shower my gf with all my love ( if one ever comes .. ) ... i wanna lead my new life well . it's time i start my life afresh .. Start to love my friends ... love my family . i wanna really spend more time with my family ..esp with my bro . I wanna gain back those days with my bro , in front of the TV .. playing video games ... and with martin too ! how the 3 of us would play video games and laugh aloud ... Getting a Ps2 soon ... ~ Taking care of all my expenses now ... Transport .. phone bill ... i wonder will there be any money left for my poly .. Cause if i end up in Dmd , i need a lot of money for materials ... if i end up in logistics , i need money for laptop ... please let me end up in logistics ... ~ U are still with him isn't it ? i really don't know what to say ... i don't know whether it's good or bad .. but i wanna wish u all the best . From the bottom of my heart ... hope that he's the one .. Hope that it's not a mistake ... ~ isn't Love a wonderful thing ? it can bring people from 2 totally different backgrounds together ... Edwin and his gf are going pretty well ... and i wanna wish him all the best ... After my Ns and his NS ... hope wedding bells will ring yeah ? haha .. kidding ... ~ Gotta go now ... mum's complaining ... have to go do housework ... [ Destiny lies in each's hands ...

posted by Ben @ 3/21/2004 12:19:00 PM