rockin' my world.

i don't understand ... ~~ i was working .. when i recieved a msg from May Anne .. telling me she really need someone ... called her right away .. to find out what was going on ... Then she msg me again .. that she needed someone a lot ... asked me to drop by ... so i did . Rushed straight away after work at hotel .. Then quickly took a train to Yck .. Walked from Yck to her home ... Finally . Destination reached .. Switched on my Hp to use that very bit of batt left .. called her house .. then call was rejected cause of the too low batt.. Then saw her msg... saying she feel kinda ok liao .. ~ Didn't wanna wake her family up with the door bell .. saw her dad at the dining table .. then i just walked the way home ... ~ ACtually i was pretty pissed off ... telling me she really needed someone and i rushed there .. knowing that she don't need anymore .. But i realized the fact .. that sometimes .. at a pt of time .. one may feel very devastated ... then the next moment.. quite ok liao .. so i can't blame her ... although it feels like i'm cheated .. the only thing or person i can blame is God / fate . I don't know why he did this but i guess he has his reasons ... ~ i miss everyone back at the restaurant .. Kumar .. Hasbullah .. Paul and melvin .. They just rock man ... it's such a pity to let go of them ... haha ... anyway .. i'm sure i will still go back to help them ... ~ i really wonder .. and really wanna question God .. will May Anne and that guy make it in the end ? really eager to see the ending .. i don't know what i'm doing actually .. it's like .. when she still needs someone .. i will be right there for her ... but .. what am i actually doing ? confused ... ~~ i really wanna get back with my close friends .. Denny they all .. i wanna see ourselves together once again .. seriously i do ... it has been a very long time since we are together as one big grp liao ... ~ have to go .. just know that i'm not suffering for nothing .. working hard for money ... wanna lighten parent's burdens ...

posted by Ben @ 3/10/2004 11:46:00 PM