rockin' my world.

Until you're back here . Miss you . Want u . Need u so . ~ A new life ? yeah ... it was a short rough period i've been through and i'm back , brand new once again ... Got my new Mazda Rx-8 in initial D version 3 ! Love my new hot machine man ... ~~ Ok i'll be totally honest here man . Hmm .. there is this girl who i have known for quite some time ... find her a real special angel .. although she's a little rough sometimes .. but really nice girl .. Then of course .. i did liked her a little .. but our relationship can't get any closer so .. it's not good to take a big step just like that yeah ? Then i got closer with another girl .. liked her too .. but it was just a small crush .. glad that everything's over ... So i'm back .... and i am back talking with this girl again ( i mean , of course i didn't neglect her while i'm wooing the other girl ) .. but i found out ... the answer may just be her again .. cause i kept thinking of her lately ... it wasn't the same for the girl who i just liked u see ... ~ Starting to miss her quite a little ... so what should i do guys ? my buddies all confirm will " Chiong dude ! Let's get It ON BABY !! wOO HOO !! SinGLEHOOD IS OVER !! " right ? haha .. ~ Sometimes .. looks are not everything .. so i hope every guy will try to look for what's more on the inside ? yeah ? ~ it's been a year plus since i had a gf ... pretty long though .. so when is my time coming God ? wasn't it supposed to be in feb or march ? cause every year at feb or march i will have a stead .. haha .. pretty standardized ain't it ? My horoscope says .. my relationship this month is treading on thin ice ... er .. but i don't even have a relationship now .. how to tread on thin ice ? maybe at the last min .. but ain't that pathetic .. to have to enter the danger zone when u just started ? ~ Yeah .. i'm a lonely man now all right ! No girls in my life ... where's everyone .. Mei ling .. Pris .. Wan teng .. Ying hui ... Adelene .. and Michelle and gang .. Lost all contact with my girl friends .. oh yeah .. why is my pranky buddy mark too ? haha .. kinda miss the kiddish jokes we had with each other ... ~ Is it .. that everyone's changed ? or is it me ... ~ I watched my sassy girl again ... i really loved it .. Really touching story between two fated partners .. Funny of course .. but it's a real special relationship between the two of them ... Will i have such a special love story too ? ~ So quickly .. another chapter of my life closes .. the chapter and the book i always hope to open again to start writing .. never seems to open .. and that's the Story of Love . ~ I watched An jing MTv again and again .. and i simply love the song and the mtv .. Really describes us sometimes .. We loved the other party so much .. and bcos of that fact .. we have to learn to let go of him / her . He / she always says that she's upset bout leaving .. but yet it's just another piece of her lies ... Everything that was reality became history .. And if she asks .. are u ok ? How's life .. U just smiled and said ... " Yeah .. i'm doing well .. " And your heart cries and u wanna tell her how much u loved her and want her back ... U only hope for one thing . That he loves u more than i do ... ~ Right now .. i wanna take ur hand .. and run away from this cruel world .. and spend forever with u . But .. as time goes by .. i can't get any closer .... ~ why do i have to learn life the hard way ? Why do other people can have it the easy way .. i don't get it ... Why do i have everything at the beginning and i lost it all ? Why was i a ignorant kid at my teens ? Why didn't i learn to appreciate everyone more at the beginning ... What if tomorrow never comes ? There are still so many words unsaid ... that i loved her . That i loved my family . That i loved my friends . That i loved everyone . i have so many wished unfulfiled ... ~ EAch day goes by .. each day i see my own friends taking everyone for granted .. Even ask urself one qn ? How would u feel if one day i die ? i really wanna know how everyone would feel u know ... am i someone who makes a difference in everyone's life ... Or am i just a tom dick harry passing thru ur life ... Guess this world is pretty selfish , cruel huh ? yeah it sure is .. if only Love could be all around us ... ~ Best friend ? i always thought i'll never have one ... then i thought i had one .. but i never had one . I guess .. there's a dark side hidden behind all of us .. whether we wanna reveal it to others who actually are .. or keep it all a secret .. and when the time comes , u show everyone who u exactly are . ~ Guess for the meantime .. this road i'm walking alone now .. Hope there will be someone who come in .. to walk this endless road with me .. ~

posted by Ben @ 5/03/2004 11:09:00 PM