rockin' my world.

i wish to walk this one way street .. just u and i . ~ i regretted whatever i did today ... she called me .. i should have at least stopped to talk to her ... but .. what the hell did i just did ? i did not even look at her .. just said hi ... what am i doing ??!! oh man ... that's it .. ~ full of regrets ... Why is it that ... i always help others .. yet i can't be who i am when i help others .. i always can't help myself .. and no one is here to help me .. i'm left alone .. the most i have my cousin martin .. no one else . ~ ok .. why didn't i stopped to talk to u and why did i sort of treat u coldly ? it's not that i hate u or what .. it's just that .. i'm afraid to face u ... i'm afraid that u can't be bothered .. i'm afraid that u will give me attitude ... so i chose to run away .. which i jolly well knew i shouldn't . ~ is anyone listening ?? no one seems to care ... ain't it ? other than my ncc pals .. where did everyone go ? just where ... ~~ " so afraid that you're saying it's over .. it's the last thing i wanna hear .. " ~ i know .. no one can give me any answers .. except for heaven . But never heaven will tell me anything ... he only guides .. but he's not doing anything now ... So .. i just hope whatever i do .. is right . ~ i'm tired ... very tired .. but i'm still moving .. i'm trying my best ... ~ i stand alone .. no one can help me except me myself . i have to go on ... ~ God .. wanna ask u this qn ... why are u doing this ? every girl that i meet .. they don't last long . They dump me .. whatever they did . So .. are u telling me not to love any girl ? treat them like dirt ? is it ? What sins have i commited ... to deserve this treatment ? is loving someone wrong ? why must u bring her further and further away from me ... ~ i don't know .. i'm confused .... ~ i know .. with u ... i wanna spend ..the rest of my life .

posted by Ben @ 4/17/2004 02:09:00 PM