rockin' my world.

Is this the end of my journey ?

He caught up with me again . he never stops hunting me down .. until the day he caught me .

i recalled the time .. the period of time there was tension between me and may anne .. i really cannot forget . What i went through .. i guessed , i have been seen the scariest things in life . Losing your heart and soul .. and he took my mind . i was nothing but just a body ... a dead one .

He came for my heart .. then my soul ... then soon , my mind . It was a unforgetable battle . The war i knew , i can never win . The nightmares night after night .. keep me awake . unable to sleep . The craziness sipped into me every day i wake up . and everyday passes by .. i knew , he was nearer . He's coming . And i can't run away from this battle anymore . it was now or never .

So i managed to have a chance to run away from him .. but now , i can feel he's nearer . is it ?

A invisible wound in your heart , you can feel the pain , the physical pain .. and everyday , he cuts through your throat slowly .. unbelievable ? believe it .

it was a spirtual battle . Only those with true spirits can win ..

so what am i saying ? am i crazy ? i'm not . I'm really not . It was this scary . i never had such an incident in my life . it was insane ... and it got me insane . I couldn't guess how much more i can live ..

Good VS the evil . They say the good will always win . is it ? i hope so .

i'm only a freaking 16 , somemore time to 17 . i still have so much to live .. so much to do .. to fulfil my own dreams . And if he comes to take me , i'm not satisfied . i won't let go of my life .

i can't wait for the day to see wedding bells ringing , for me and wife . The first touch i have with my new born child . The first sight of my new car . The first sight of my apartment . i can't wait to see my children grow up . Does it end all here ?

For those who have a good life .. i really hope u guys appreciate it .. cause if u grumble bout your own , take a look at others first b4 saying anything . Then hope u feel fortunate ... I know i am fortunate . Very fortunate.

Oh man .. what am i saying .. well .. guess most don't really understand or know what happened to me some time ago . no one knows , no one could see . Only i could . and to face it all alone .. was the toughest part .

But today's different i guess .. i'm leading a good life .. all i hope , is that he doesn't enter my life again .. i've gained back my heart , soul and mind . Don't take them away and for good ..

posted by Ben @ 9/30/2004 11:47:00 PM