rockin' my world.

Lost . Just like a child that's lost his way.

Today .. i woke up .. feeling rather weird .. then stopped to think about certain things .. i realised .. i'm a lost man .

Life's been so smooth for me lately .. i feel so empty . so empty . like as if i have lost everything on this earth . Like as if i'm the only man on earth .

The only reason why i wouldn't go the Australia to further my studies , is that i either got into Pilot school .. and already on my way to USA for training .. or that i have a girlfriend that i love very much ... If not , no one's gonna stop my dream .

But by the time i graduated .. i would already by 29 .. and i would have to start my career at such a age .. and by the time i get married .. wouldn't it be very late ?

Guess this is the price of my dream ... the worst is the risks of this career .. i can die anytime .. is it worth it ? What will happen to my family then ..

Today's been a bad day in addition . Supposed to meet Jian Sheng at 745 . 852 came at 744 a.m .. and Jian Sheng wasn't here yet .. so i went to eat breakfast nearby , knowing that 852 will take some time .. then after that go macdonalds' toilet ..

Then i went to the bus stop .. and another 852 pass by again . it was already 805 or 810 already . And after a minute , Jian Sheng came . Can u imagine how SianX diao i am ? Forever late one lei ..

Then .. we were late for dragonboat . We took the bus and the stupid bus driver drove so so so slowly .. and there are so many turns and traffic lights in that bus's route . And plus , there was a jam . I don't really know why either .

Then , during dragonboat , we had a conflict within our boat . Bcos we know we can win the seniors , or even stay on par with the NTU , SAFSA . but we got thrashed again . Everybody's morale were so low .

Today's a real bad day .. i hope later when i'm off to watch Police story with my buddies .. it'll brighten up my day .. and after that , i'm off to city hall to spend the night .. Starting the 21km army marathon at 6a.m .

Well .. hope tomorrow will be a better day .. Hope Heaven has some plans for me ahead of my life soon ..

posted by Ben @ 9/25/2004 07:20:00 PM