rockin' my world.

what a day . pissed off to the max .

well .. i started discussing bout xmas plans with my buddies for don't know how long .. and we didn't reach decision and i decided to spend it with piak mer edwin and co. ..

Hmm .. ever since secondary sch .. i was the one who kept asking them out for bball and all the shit ... and all the shit comes to me , sorry , i had enuf . For today as well .

we never come to a decision . it's bcos anything , also don't want . anything also wanna stay at home . anything also sianx . then na bei , anything also don't do lah . i am so pissed that i cannot tolerate anymore to use vulagarities .

Ask them for suggestions ..they don't give ... all they say , is NO To my suggestions ... hey guys , just wanna spend some time with u guys relax and chat somewhere ... and say this and say that .. forget bout it ! i think to u guys ... time = infinity . we take things for granted .

i hope ,i die soon . to wake them up from reality . i have gotten sick of life as well . and i know , i won't live long , heaven has been sending this msg to me long ago . i don't care where i'll be .

i really feel sad bout this as well . i think i need to rest . To forget everything in a day's sleep , to calm myself down .

pls don't tell my life is beautiful and all that , i know , i experienced it . but somehow i know my time is short . it won't be for long .

posted by Ben @ 12/24/2004 01:39:00 AM