rockin' my world.

The day will come . That i will lose my pride .. my honour . ~ Samurai..The last samurai ... fight with pride .. die in honour . ~ if i have to be on bended knees to get you out of this situation ... if i have to lick his boots .. if i have to accept punches ... i would . Every man has this pride .. one of the most valuable things of him ... would he give it up ? Most keep .. few will . ~ Lose my pride and honour as a Staff sergeant .. lose my power and respect as a CLT . I would .. give it up . Cause i know .. ordeals i have gone through to gain that rank ... Battles i have fought with the mind . ~ Pride .. doesn't matter to me anymore . As long as you are all right and happy ... Nothing matters . ~~ My heart is gone ... he's coming after my mind . ~ Now .. seriously .. telling you guys .. i have lost my heart . i have lost feelings . i can't feel anymore . i can't love anymore . it became an empty space in my body . it seems like there's no beat ... Because of an incident .. i realised that my heart does not exist . ~ He's still not satisfied .. next target .. my mind . ~ Getting some pretty severe headaches in the corner of my head ... thoughts haunt me everyday ... i can't lose my mind ! i must not .. cause without my heart .. my mind is the only thing keeping me alive . if i lose it .. i'm a goner . ~ A war ... an unavoidable war ... i will fight it . But the problem is ... can i win ? i've lost half of it ... i have to win back the other half ! an impossible dream but i must dream it . Live it ! ~ Lord of the rings .. i admire the spirit they have . The bond , the trust friends have ... The determination . The honour they wanna have . They dare to dream impossible dreams ... Even if they knew they are not gonna make it .. They still fight on . Now .. i must have that spirit .. that determination .. to win this guy . Losing is not an option .. definitely .. cause i will let so many people down .. Esp May Anne ... ~ i'm sure .. i will come back ... Ben will come back ..

posted by Ben @ 1/30/2004 11:06:00 PM