rockin' my world.

Long Goodbye ~? i wake up this morning ..to feel this pain in my heart ....it's getting worse everyday .. i'm no longer myself .... i just wish .. that i can be happy once again . But now that things are like that .. how to ... it's really tough .. to hold on to the hope that things will get better everyday .... Betrayed and betrayed , again and again .... no man can take this .. i have gone beyond my limits .... try it again and the friendship is gone .. trust me . i'm both very angry and sad .... cause .. i'm always hidden from the truth.... GOD DAMN IT !!! i'm very mad ! i don't believe it ! why do i always get such F***ing treatment .... tell me , i deserve all this ? tell me why do u do such hurting things again and again ... i'm very tired already ... u tell me to hold on ..... please give me a situation that i CAN ! i have already done the impossible ..don't expect me to do more .... if you wanna use a sword to pierce right thru my heart , just do it .... don't break my heart bit by bit .. what is it that u want ? i don't understand .... What more do you want ...... i really cannot TAKe it AnymoRE ! without my friends support .. i would have hit my head on the wall .. and i guarantee you that i WouLd have do it ... i don't even get a sorry from you this time around ...... so .. you think it's all right ? i have told you .. no matter how much my heart breaks , i don't care as long as you are HAPPY ! but you ARE not ! GOD damn IT ! Tell me ... why do you let our troubles keep coming aGAIN AND AGAIN !!! i'm GOing MAD !! i can't take it anymore .... i'm losing it .. You don't have the heart to Reject him but u have the heart to Reject me ? What the hell ! i don't believe ! Suffer if you want to .... i have told u , I don't want u to have regrets , but i can't stop u from doing that ... haven't u learnt more bout love all these years ? seems like u haven ... and that's very sad .... WHY !!! why do i have to suffer this kind of fate ... again and again the pain comes ... and it never leaves .... something's gonna happen to me .. i can guarantee... it will come soon .. very soon .

posted by Ben @ 1/15/2004 11:59:00 AM