rockin' my world.

If i could get another chance .. if i could just steal one final glance .. one Final step .. one Final Walk .. i'll play a song that will never ever end ... ~~ Been listening to Luther vandoss's Dance with my Father song .. i really love this song .... The first time i listened to it .. i was real really touched ... cause it just reminds me of my family too ..The days when my bro and i were small .. we really enjoyed life back then .. and i'm sure my parents did too .. esp my parents b4 my bro and i were born too ... Anyway .. just reminds me of memories back then .. and i love the song ! haha ... don't think any person around me will appreciate .. haha ..~ FD3s Type R / Running in the 90s . ~~ Been playing inital D everyday ... i just love my FD !! haha ... me currently 2nd in one of the map ... actually i lost o the first by a timing of one second ... then i don't know what happened .. a Nissan Sileighty came in and what the heck !! faster than me by 5 secs !! how am i supposed to catch up on that ... ~ oh ya .. i challenged this nerd someday .. then of course on my record breaking map ( hahaha ) .. i thrashed him by like ..400 m ? and he's a skyline R34 .. muhahahaha!!! definitely.. his engine is better than me .. of course he sets off first ... he lost my the first major turn .. and the 2nd was where he got thrashed ... I won of course .. then he challenged me again .. But b4 that , finally changed my spoiler !! so happy .. and my spoiler looks damn incredibly big !! Then level up too ... Ok , he challenged me to the last map .. don't know what that's called la .. the many u turns one ... (my hand got real tired after all that u turn .. cause i set the pressure of the sterring well pretty high.. ) .. i cut him at the first or 2nd turn .. after that .. i don't know what happened ... my steering wheel went loose ... i started to lose grip .. that's where he started to catch up on me .. and i was like .. Damn !! The engine wasn't that smooth that round too .. wonder what happened to FD ... i shouldn't lose at all man !! haha .. never mind la .. i thrashed him can liao ... but he's such a nerd man !! he everyday wear same shirt .. siao kia man !! Tug in somemore .. bit mouthstache .. what a B*tch !! haha ... Gonna thrash him someday in Akina and Akagi someday .. muhaha!! ~ ok .. enough of CAr talk .. been crazy bout Rx-7 lately man ... and oh ya hoh .. Why did initial D made Integra to be such a god like car !! why !! it's a piece of junk man !! why why why .. integra will never win rx-7 or skyline or whatever car there is ... and it always do in the game ! what the heck .. ~ Ok ok ! me shut up .. so how's life everyone ? Eric took 3 days leave .. so it's me myself and i in the office .. great !! so sian .. have to do his work too ... and i've got additional work cause he made errors in his past assignment ..so i must redo everything again ! then must help him do his work , and mine !! and he took 3 days off .. it's gonna be pretty hard to catch up on everything .. hope when he come back .. we can get back on track ... ~ oh yeah ... of course .. there are girls everywhere in the office ... of course .. not to mention .. Aunties and all that ... yeah .. but .. even though there are great or pretty ones .. i mean .. they are in their twenties yeah ? so i stand no chance to even knowing them at all .. besides .. i'm supposed to be stuck in that ROOM .. nowhere else so i can't find any excuse to know anyone outside ... and besides ... i'm not that desperate to find a lame excuse to know a girl outside .. But say again .. there's one real pretty one outside .. in her 20s .. she's someone that is like mrs Yeo in our school yeah ? she's really my dream girl type ... but .. if we are friends that's enuf yeah ? good enuf to know her .. i don't need to think anywhere further ... ~ Oh yeah .. i admit .. i'm pretty desperate for now .. i wanna quickly get over my pain ... i wanna erase all those bad memories .. i wanna start a new life .. with a new someone ...but i mean .. yeah i'm desperate , but i will still judge on whether the girl and me are compatiable .. whether we can click on all that .. whether she's the play type or the really love type .. i don't wanna get hurt again u know .. and i don't wanna hurt anyone for no reason .. like let's say for Larvina . She's great .. great figure and pretty all that .. but i don't wanna take another step ... cause i can never discover happiness with her . never.... ~ Man .. i miss all my friends .. when are we all ever gonna hang out together in one big grp and go mad like how we used to .. Martin !! where are u ? My Brothers 7 Gang too ... don't u guys remember this is what we called ourselves back then ... Adelene too .. did not contact u much since that phone incident .. ~ i just wanna know .. how much everyone cares for me ... whether it's little .. or not at all .. even if it's just a few words .. a small action ... i will appreciate .. ~ Ok , i admit la . I'm really in this own lost loner world of mine ... i'm really really very lonely !! i wanna go back to the days of sec 2 ... where we would study and have fun in class ... and after school we have ncc .. so awesome ! yeah baby !! But apparently .. God does not allow us to walk back the paths we have chosen to take .. we have to suffer whatever consequences we are meant to take ... ~ Let me say out something .. i finally found a mistake in my relationship with wei ling .. and thanks wei ling .. for allowing me to realize that mistake ... and i will change ... hope our friendship still stand ? take care .. ~ all right ... so god .. what more u want me to change ? think i'm pretty ok liao ba as a Bf ... or u want be to be perfect ? i'm fine with that .... haha .. Bless me k ? ~ Haha .. i'm still so excited bout FD man ... i just wanna see one soon .. or even drive one ! can't wait to get my car ... can't wait to go the japan too !! oh what the crap ...~ Edwin my dear edwin ... haha .. thinking u are in ur honeymoon now ? only that school work is the only constaint in ur current sweet days .. don't ya think studies just suck ? haha .. it's all right .. soon it's all gonna be over... Hold on to each other real tight for this year k ? don't let studies destroy the relationship .. whatever obstacles come by .. conquer them with confidence ... True love will take u through every thing together . Take care and God bless .... ~ oh ... me ? nah .. don't have any target for now .. so happy to see our edwin finally not on the shelves liao ( what the heck ? u mean he was a girl all this while waiting to get married ? ) .. haha ... what bout people like Ting xian ? Jian Sheng ... Jun Xian ? Denny ... and me .. what u guys waiting for ? i think Ting xian and JS pretty mature to go have a gf liao ... only that .. u guys should change some things yeah ? Jun xian .. i love the personality of urs now .. funny and hilarious ... so when u are gonna turn serious to have a gf .. i'm sure that will be a big change yeah ? ~ Remember ting xian .. u have gotta tell urself ... no matter how sucky ur situation is .. No matter how many girls u had and they don't work out .. no matter how many time u get dumped .. No matter how many times u tell the girls u loved them and they don't care ... God is watching . Definitely .. whatever God la .. May it be Oh mighty God or Guan yin or buddha .. i'm sure someone up there is watching yeah ? he has eyes .. i bet he's not that unfair . It's just that ... our time hasn't come ya ? don't rush things .. try to be patient ... of course .. there will be some times .. when u feel so lowly on this earth .. that u have no one to love and all ur friends have ... just look forward to a better tml .. i'm sure tomorrow will always be better ... yeah dude ? i'm still waiting for mine to come by too .. so let's be patient ! ~~ So Life is indeed very meaningful indeed ... have to go ... bye ..

posted by Ben @ 3/26/2004 09:15:00 PM