rockin' my world.

The Flame is dying . Heaven save me .

i know i shouldn't feel this way .. but i can't help by feeling this way .. i'm losing hope in life .. The flame is dying out . i know i shouldn't admit defeat to this battle ..

I'm losing hope . I've about to give up in life . Why do i have to face things this way ? i'm so tired .. i can't walk this endless road anymore .

Well .. life goes on . My fate hasn't change . Heaven is still pushing me til the end . Heaven and Reality are so cruel . i'm only a 17 year old kid . why do u have to give things to me this way ?

The past , i don't wanna recall , neither can i forget . What happened to me , will forever stay a permanent scar in my life . Just why doesn't Heaven send someone to save me ? Send me a guardian angel , cause i know , my battle with him hasn't end . i cannot manage this alone at all ...

Thinking too much .. i guess tomorrow will be better ... maybe the battle was already over .. i won .. but i just kept thinking it wouldn't be that simple at all .. my buddies don't even know what happened to me . No one understands . i only told a few people . But they don't seem to care bout me now .

*Always look on the bright side of life " - i guess i should remind myself this way ... i have to believe. Believe in myself . Heaven's not that cruel after all isn't it ? Get him outta my life , once and for all. Give me peace .

posted by Ben @ 10/08/2004 01:05:00 AM