rockin' my world.

Traitors - Betrayal . Buddies remain loyal . ~ could i be backfired ? i don't know .. i need to have a talk with my buddies .... Cause now , the situation has changed .. we are like the Axis ( GErmans ) , he is the Allies ( America ) .. and part of the axis has joined the Allies .. now could it be that .... all the axis will join the allies except me ? Yes .. my dear buddies , i do dislike him but i don't blame him , cause damn it , it's my own doing .. i have no one to blame except myself ! So .. i just try to as nice to him as i can ... apparently , i am not as open to him liao ... but this is all i can do . i'm sure he has realized the attitude .... but , May anne .. u understand me the most so u definitely know why do i do this ... not able to separate personal life from ncc .. why am i unable to treat him a little better . i'm confused... i definitely have full trust in my buddies ...cause i know , no one , no man can break this loyal ties between us . i feel so sad ... so depressed .. so heartbroken ..to see u like that .. unable to even smile .... God damn it .. i can't even do anything ! i hate myself ..... what can i do ? what should i do ? now .. i wish to save u from this hell but i can't ... i can't ..... now u are cying over there ... i can't do anything .. i wish to fly over there .. to lend u a shoulder .. but i can't ! why is this all fated .... God damn it ! now .. i have this headache and it's getting stronger ... don't know whether i can go anywhere later anot .. let me be the one to bring u away from this cruel world , all u need to do is just stretch out your hand ... and we'll fly away from here . Trust me , just believe in me .....

posted by Ben @ 1/19/2004 11:18:00 AM