rockin' my world.

Unstable State of mind ~ Yesterday .. we went KFC to eat .... when we were about to go home .. he stood right in front of me .. suddenly ..this anger boils in my heart ... mood and face changed ... almost burst . Life ... just turns out to be the way i dun wanna it to be . i feel so sad when u dun wanna give it a shot ... Try and Try . If not , you will not succeed - MVP Qing ren . i remember this very phrase . So , i usually never say die . Cause i know .. all u need is just to try , no matter how slim your chances lie . Broken , heart still struggles to piece every part together .. but just one mild shot , will break everything again . Hope i will recover soon ... Cause i don't wanna trouble my friends cause they need to spend time on me , esp one girl cause when i'm depressed , i will go to her . Yesterday changi was so cold ... so cold ..that i couldn't sleep .. shivering a lot ... regretted not bringing windbreaker ... and this coldness stays in my body until now . i still feel very cold ... that warm blood don't run thru my body . Just wished for someone to hug me yesterday . Almost froze . Getting pretty unwell .. stomach having some probs .. leg still swollen ... back feels pain . But i should be going to the Doc sometime soon .. so there's no need to worry . For you , i really don't know how to face u sometimes .... i've let u down .. and that .. the feeling just suck when the one u love is right in front of u and yet , u can't even have them .. i fear that i would change too . So .. i maybe a different man after all these . And i don't wanna change anymore ... cause i know .. if i change .. it will be for the worse . ~ remember the Song Swear it Again ? Yes .. i'm really glad ..to be on this one way street , just u and i . Never to let u go !

posted by Ben @ 1/18/2004 12:37:00 PM