rockin' my world.

When will the next come ..

i'm sick of life !! Losing friends one by one ... What's wrong with this world !!! Saying i got attitude ? i don't give attitude unless u guys do sth wrong all right ?? i really wanna name people man ... but i know i shouldn't . Cause mouths will talk again . EVerything will spread like fire . this is what i really hate . I can't even say what i wanna say . ~ Wah ... i'm sick of my working place man ! All i see is guys !! i've got a world dominated with men for 18 days ! and now this ... it's like as if God wants me to stay single all my life ... ~ wah .. i feel like running like a mad dog now ... sick of work ! Sick of life . Sick of routines ! what's up next man ? am i gonna lose someone real impt or what ? What u want from me GOD ??!! What the heck are u trying to do ? i don't get it man . I don't get it . i seriously don't get it. And now .. i feel so much like using vulgarities ... but no . they are sensitive words .. shouldn't be used unnecessarily .. ~~ My Ncc platoon is getting out of hand .. seems like i have to go back ... what the hell .. can't i even get a break ... i had enuf of such life !! a While Customers at my restaurant complain .. a while i do wrong thing .. then i getting so freakin blur lately .. kanna scolded by chefs .. what the heck man !! i don't even have anyone to confide in now ... i wanna bang my head on the wall man ! ~ Sick sick sick sick of life ! What's up with this world man ? what are their damn problems ? why is it that girls expect me to be perfect ? is it bcos that all the other guys seem perfect in front of them ? I rather be myself then fake it lo ... So which do u prefer ? False or truth ? or honesty ? Don't know what u girls thinking man ... ~ Then u all know my temper very crazy one ... then now have to hold it back .. i think i will go crazy b4 i burst man ... ~ i think i shall go running and gym later .. go mad man .... ~ Martin was so right .. the only fact ... that i will fall for May Anne again ..is only bcos .. she's the only girl in my life at that pt of time ... or is it ? But i won't walk back . i have the answer that u have been seeking right here with me .. u will know everything tml . ~ i wonder ... what will happen next .. am i gonna lose someone again ? am i gonna lose myself ? are my dreams gonna be dashed again just like that .. ~ i have wasted so many years .. it's time that i should stand up again ... be strong . ~ i'm so tired ... so tired of life , just wanna sleep now ... perhaps forever .

posted by Ben @ 3/04/2004 06:43:00 PM