rockin' my world.

it's just so amazing that things can turn out this way .. but i dont give much of a shit ... ~ All right , say what u wanna say . Put words into my mouth . It's fine with me ... u Msg me nicely on msn .. all these efforts is nowhere comparable for calling u for 4 years ... so what are u getting mad bout ? i don't see why .. ~ and i just love the reason we severed ties , no , i Severed ties with u . it's bcos of ur JER who came in and destroyed it all . and i really wanna thank him man ... ~ I have my nasty sides i'm telling u . I have already said u are playing beyond my patience and u went futher down . So don't blame me for being nasty . ~ Don't make me laugh .. u call me childish ? look who's talking ... u urself accepted a man who u don't even like and u don't even know why u accepted him .. let's look further man .. and u say u can't break up with him ? when steps are easy as ABC ? and u knowing what type of man he is , u still carried on ... Childish ? even if i am , all my friends and seniors are not . Do you know what is called Betrayal of Trust ? why do i ever think of leaving u ? Cause u've played with my trust , not for 1 time , but several times ... ~ Have u tried been understanding ? Do you know F*** up it is to get such grades when i'm supposed to get a lot better ? do you know how F*** up it is to lose ur most precious dream ? And do you think it is easy to think of courses i wanna join in such a quick time ? My interests is so few .. what can i think of ? ~ Now u feel how it's like to get this type of treatment when people treat u well right ? how ? is it good ? Do you now know how it feels to be treated this way ? ~ From that day onwards , u lead ur life . I lead mine . Let's just forget bout each other . I don't think i will ever forgive u . ur mistakes are too grave . Even if i do , my heart won't . Take it that i never existed . ~~ Just collected pay today ... then finally bought my bro's present .. it was a shirt from Nike .. costs me quite a lot .. but it's all right ... at least he says it's not bad !! Just bought a Skyline R34 too ... and a mazda Rx-8 small one .. Gonna fix my Rx-7 today .. hope to get it done .. ~ Seems like i still don't know quite much bout car assembling hobby ... the guy introduced so much to me and i was like " wah ! very money wasting leh actually .. " next ... maybe wanna get Limited edition Spirit R Rx-7 .. and Limited Ed Skyline .. ~ When Larvina came in .. or is it Lavrina ? .. Angela told her .. Hey .. Ben looking for u leh .. Then i was like !!! what the hell ! Since when i have said that !! ~ Now everyone call me Ah Ben ... Janet at chinese restaurant .. Angela .. then don't know still got who .. ~ Now my manger treat me quite well .. but i'm still not used to it .. perhaps he sees me as polite " Greeted him everytime ... Learnt from NCC " .. then when i have nothing to do , i will not slack .. i will find something to do cause i'm bored ! then maybe he think that i'm hardworking ... but that's not the case ! haha .. imagine i let him know ... ~ i'm getting very blur lately .. i'm losing that decisiveness that i had in my ncc days .. i no longer have that powerful initiative .. i'm losing my leadership !! Too rusty i guess ... ~ i don't know man .. Lavrina is definitely not for me .. so i guess is vivien then ? but .. she seems to be a little hard to pursue .. cause the way she speaks is so refined .. then .. our backgrounds maybe so different .. But anyway , let's just give it a shot .. U never know right ? ~ Seems like i'm getting along well in my new workplace .. the only thing is that .. very little youngsters here ! and Lavrina is sort of the only girl here ... guys only got me and Hasbullah .. i can get sick of this place man ! ~ i have another option for Poly now .. Multimedia . So that leaves me with 3 choices .. Air force , Cars , and Multimedia . i don't know whether i will be taking biomedical .. but definitely business is not for me . Cause it just bores me ... just like how accounts did . ~ Sp ? Or ngee ann ? SP has a better location .. but i just feel like going to Ngee Ann . the food there nicer .. facilities seem better .. and besides , SP don't have a very outgoing and " bright " image of themselves in the open house ... ~ just hope that i get into Bball team .. although how lousy i am . Cause if i enter .. my skills will definitely improve tremendously .. ~ damn .. sick of talking bout such stuff .. i'm just so sick of life man . i don't even know how warmth feels .. i just hope .. that this girl i'm going for .. is the one . She may not be pretty .. i don't care .

posted by Ben @ 3/01/2004 06:41:00 PM