rockin' my world.

Back from work . - i was working alone today with none of my friends .. actually a little unwilling in the beginning but i still have to go cause i promised them i'll be there ... and i just found out that the uniform sucks !! but bo pian ... then the assistant manager ... wah !! Don't need elaborate right ? ~ Bought my initial D keisuke takahashi FD3s Rx-7 .. so ex man !! and i just recieved my pay of 79 bucks and in a few minutes .. it's all gone .. return people cash and all that .. next model ... Skyline !! then maZa Rx-7 again .. ~~ Er .. u said u are still the same .. u sure ? u sure ? u sure ? i'm asking 3 times .... i asked u so many times qns and u don't reply .. when in the hell in these 4 years did i ask u at least 3 qns and u never reply ? did u ? and the last qn was very serious and the hell with it u didn't reply and internet u go ... ~ All right ... u say how come i'm feeling better now then why our friendship is going way off ? hmm ... seriously , ask urself this qn first . U know who and how i'm like . i don't go scold someone for no reason or rthyme esp if the person is u . ~ so u think it's my fault ? yeah .. perhaps it's my fault that i flare up but one thing ... why did i flare up ? cause i'm tolerating too much nonsense .... ~ i expect too much from ya ? nope .. did i ever say to u that u are not contacting me lately or what recently ? u said that i expect too much from you so i stopped doing my part ... and besides .. in the 4 years .. i never contact u .. u won't come and contact me ... i'm sure u like it that way right ? it only shows one thing when u don't contact me at least once a week or what .. that i don't mean anything in your heart . ~~ what's with the silence attitude arh ? i can say so much and u say almost only one syllabus or nothing at all ... why not u try talking first la ? it's almost always me that talk and talk ... ~~ actually ... only until this year , i get to understand u more . i get to see right through u . and i'm really glad to understand u a little more . Only one reason why .. ~~ my friends ? they only mean well ... cause sometimes when i get angry bcos of you or get sad .. i will tell them the situation and they will only say one thing . LEave her . and one more thing .. i am never baised . If i'm in the wrong , i will shut the hell up and complain bout nothing . ~~ Go think again ... seriously .. if it's my F***ing fault .. tell me . Then i will have nothing to say . It can NOT be nobody's fault . That's one pretty lousy excuse to escape from the situation . ~~ the true words i wanna say .. i hide them inside . CAuse once i say , then u will fire back at me . and there u go ... never to learn again . Never to change . Those are true thoughts ... but it's pointless for me to say .. so i rather keep my mouth shut . ~~ i have changed ? YEs , my damn attitude has changed . I no longer talk nicely and give in if it's your damn fault . I'm sick of that . And u will go " IT's ALL MY FAULT LA !! " ... don't use this way to make me feel bad to accept some of the blame . Cause it will never help . Bcos .. it's YOUR fault and by saying this .. u are trying to deny . And u will not learn or change . Stay forever like this , u have said once , let u lead your rotten life , i will , if u are not gonna listen to any advice of mine , i say ANY .... ~~ Wah .. i do sound like i'm scolding u ? no ... i'm very serious now . So no haha or hehes . Advice is for u to take . U wanna take this rotten path is ur own very choice . i cannot force u to come with me . ~~ u cherish me ? ask yourself this qn again ... u sure u do ? u see what i did for u ? it's only shows one thing .. i cherish u . But what bout u ? do you cherish me ? i mean , not cherish me as much as i do cherish u . Just Cherish . DO you ? This qn is for yourself ... just go think .. ~ Now i know , why god made the decision that we are not fated to be together ... cause we will never settle down . Nope , i'm saying this truthfully , not that bcos of whatever the each of us did or that i bu shuang u now . We wiLL never settle down .. and i'm glad of your decision . I in fact thank god for that ... only one reason . ~~ Now , i'm heading for someone new .. cause i know , it's time for someone new to come in and stop all the pain i am going thru and to erase all the bad memories . Who arh ? i won't say ... ~ Thank God my cousin is Martin .. cause he made me realise a lot of things ...a lot . and i found out what all he have said is true . Very true . and i'm glad that he has said all he had to . i don't call it convincing or decieving sentences . i call it Truth . ~~ A week tells a lot of things . I trust this sentence from martin ... not gonna elaborate . ~ V day present .. there's so much i wanna know .. unless i am you , i won't be able to understand . is it that bcos i've bought u one then u buy one for me also ? or is it that .. i kept talking bout V day then u felt like u had no choice but to just give me something ? or is it that i keep reminding u or whatsoever ? ( just my thoughts .. ) Listen this sentence well . It's not to backfire u or what . That's not the purpose . -- It's better to get a gift that may not be really nice ... than not to get one at all or a belated one . Get it ? if you don't .. maybe later on in life .. u will agree with me . ~~ Choice is near . I have to make a decision fast . But long ago , i have already decided .

posted by Ben @ 2/19/2004 12:46:00 AM