rockin' my world.

What's with all you guy's attitude ? What the hell is going on ?? ~ i use to have 2 angels by my side ... always there to save me ..the other always never failed to cheer me up ... then what the heck happened to them ! I really wanna know man ... They are really not themselves .. and i don't know what cause the damn change ... one was so happy so crappy , now so impatient so ... i don't know what la , not herself correct liao la .. the other was such a nice girl ... so nice and sweet .. now .. like bu shuang whatever i say ... what should i do man ? What the hell have i done wrong ? ~~ i'm sick of such a situation ya know ? i though i always had these 2 pillars to rely on when i'm about to fall .. they were the ones that really brought me up to such a position right now .. if i lose it all now , i will be back to square one where i lose my heart and soul and that pathetic situation .. ya know ? ~~ Tx : if ya wanna think it's a problem cast upon myself , u are very very wrong . Cause this situation is no situation with my own mind . You don't understand what's happening to me . Cause i did not say everything here .... and if i know if the problem is with my own mind , i willl know it . Cause i have been thru such situations and i am now able to decipher whatever problems that are caused by myself ... You think i'm a very happy guy who keep laughing in front of all of you ? No ! i'm not myself anymore . i'm just trying my best to stay the same in front of you guys .. you don't know what the hell is happening to me . So don't say that i am in such a situation bcos of myself . You wanna try one day really losing your soul ? when you can never feel anything , not even your heart pounding ? When you cannot think of ANYTHING even if u try to think of something ? Your mind just stays a blank .. you wanna try one day losing your heart ? u don't really know how it feels to lose all these ... u can ask edwin . If he ever saw a day that i wasn't myself .. that i was so different . you did not see the days i lost my soul and heart ... and i tell u , you still have your soul and heart . Cause when u lose your heart ... even if my mums dies ... i cannot feel anything . And that sucks . I had such a feeling b4 . Something happened to a very important person of my life and i can feel no shit ... and it's just not me . u go ask yourself whether u wanna believe my story . ~~ I just hate the world right now ... I just want things all back to the way they were !

posted by Ben @ 2/07/2004 09:21:00 PM