rockin' my world.

Drifting apart .. the distance between us is getting further and further part everyday .... i will learn to let go if i have to .. ~~ i'm very sad .. cause i can see what is happening ... and then again ... we will be what we were 2 years ago .. you lead your life .. i lead my life ... is this gonna be at the end of this chapter ? ~ i don't know how to lead my life without you again .. without your comfort when i'm always down .. without your voice when i'm happy ... without your crap to cheer me up .. life will be very different if i ever lose a friend like you ... i try not to depend on others ... but in the end i still rely on others .. ~ i really hate the way things are in now .. as if .. i was forced to let go of you .. and our close friendship .. as if i'm forced to go back to the way things were ... is it ? ( am i thinking too much ? perhaps ... but when things are like that now .. so different .. how not to ? ) ~ So in the end .. i'm alone .... in the end .. it's still up to me to win this war alone .. i'm very happy that heaven at least leave my buddies behind to support me .. at least he isn't so cruel to take everyone away from me ... ~ I know i can't let go .. but i have to learn . and i will .... ~ So at the end of the chapter .. she's still not mine .... but it's all right .. just bring her back . i will not lose you again cause this time around , i'll go wherever you will go . Turn Left , Turn right ... i'm always given very tough decisions to make ... now .. should i let you go or get back all that's lost ? get back the close friendship we once had .. or should i don't bother u anymore .... i'm really at a lost . But i really do want things to be the way they were , nothing else . ~ Flame is dying.. i don't know whether i can hold on anymore .. but perhaps a busy life can draw all these thoughts away from me ? Best friends since sec 1 ... and things has to be the way they are now . Why ?? Cause people change .. i have to accept it . ACcept the fact that she changed , that i have changed . ~ Wo mei You zhe zhonG tian Fen .. An JinG de Mei Zhe me Kuai .. ~ Reality is unkind . Things always happen the other way u want it to .. Squall said this .. i kind of believe in it ... but at least .. Try . don't look on the bad side .. as if there is no hope .. Try . At least put in some effort .. cause there is always hope ... - " As long as you don't get your hopes up, you can take anything. You feel less pain." Perhaps what squall said is true .. don't always hope for the desirable consquences to happen .. ~ That spirit that i once had .. daring to dream and do the impossible .. i think i should give it up . ~ Anyway .. don't worry .. i'm trying my best to live my life well . i'm not very very down .. cause i have to accept reality . i can't move on if i'm down ... life still has to go on no matter what . So i chose to let go .. and get on with life . Regret that the way things are in now ..

posted by Ben @ 2/08/2004 04:39:00 PM