rockin' my world.

SepaRate wayS - > Further and further apart everyday .. history is gonna repeat .... ~ i'm pretty upset over what is happening .. that we ain't as close as b4 ... is it that u are busy lately or what ? i don't know .. i don't wanna make that effort to contact u now on my initiative ... i'm sick of it .. for 4 years .. it's like as if you don't give a damn bout me ... It's all right .. cause i can't demand anything from you .. i'm not your bf nor your mum or dad ... just a friend . ~~ i'm with my buddies everyday .. Eric ,Jian Sheng and martin. I do enjoy time with them .. but i'm still missing out on one very impt girl , who is my bestest bud .... so my life still stays empty .... ~ If it's your choice to go away .. i should also try my best to walk away .. right ? i should learn to let go .... ~~ If i don't get through this period of time ... at least i'm glad , that no one walked this path with me .. that i'm alone . i relied on no one ... and i can hold on til this far alone . ~~ Love , Forbidden Love seems to be the answer . But it's all right .. all i just wish is that he loves you more than i do ... all i need do is to let go and look for another girl , simple ain't it ... ~~ Cold ... why am i so cold today .. woke up in the moring so cold ... what's happening ? nah .. probably be all right tomorrow ... ~ i have changed . dEfinitely ... i don't know what has .. but it's definitely my attitude . not a big change though but .. it's just not myself .. and the change is to the bad side .... ~ i have to try my best to be independent ain't it .... not to depend on others ... not to rely on others ... just get thru things myself ... with no one else ... i think i have to learn this point ... even the result of me would be a loner ...a cold one . ~~ i just feel like screaming right now ... F *** and all that .... i'm just sick of life ... why the hell things are in such a state .... i have no one now . People left .. and don't seem like they are coming back .... ~ i'm tired .. very tired .... i may fall .. i wanna sleep forever .. i don't wanna wake up to such unkind reality .... Promises we've made .. does it still stand ? Forever ? ~~ i really try to write a little crazy stuff here now .. not to make the entry so sad .. but i really can't do it . i have nothing else to say . F*** this world ... on the day i have work , then the F***ing parade come ... then saturday also me OOD .. i'm already busy as it is to plan all these stuff .... why not get some asshole who's not doing their jobs ? Damn it .. F*** the world .... what the hell .... insanity is near ... just hope it don't take me over again ...

posted by Ben @ 2/11/2004 10:03:00 AM