rockin' my world.

The thought of you keep striking my mind .... ~ i think .. i'm relying on u too much . i can't stand days without you . So i have to learn . To learn how to live life without you . If not , it will eventually become a burden to you and me ... ~ so how are you doing ? are doing well ? well .. at the look at it .. life still goes on as per usual ... i like to ask a question .. will there be any difference with or without me in your life ? i'm no longer the small boy who crap lame and dumb jokes .. i can't joke as much ... cause i realized the fact that people don't really cherish me .. and that fact changed me in that sector .. ~~ Life still goes on as per usual .. working pretty tough lately ... but one question to God .. why all of a sudden he shoved so many pretty and nice girls to me ? he's giving me a lot of chances now .. I just find it pretty weird .. that's all . ~~ tonight will be working from 11 to 7am .. wonder if i can hold on .. i worked in the morning to afternoon at Kopi Tiam ( SwissoTel the Stamford ) and my back almost break man and now it's aching ... ~~ Guess what man ? i saw a girl who looks like my primary school mate adelene , she's a customer today la , she looks so so so pretty man !! Taiwan girl i guess ... but she's incredibly elegant and beautiful man !! Haha ... it's just that i'm serving around that area .. that's why i can't skip notice .. ~~ actually .. i want to ask u a qn ... how are you ? are u still thinking of that guy or what ? or are u still contactin him ... i really fear that when i'm out .. i may see the 2 of u .. holding hands once again . i won't be able to take that impact . First .. is that u never tell me la ... second .. actually no second la ... the first one is rather big liao ... ~~ And when i read ur blog .. i see this guy call jay jay right ? it seems to me that ... u really enjoy ur time with ur CI mates .. esp with this jay jay around .. i wonder ... has he taken over my place ? i'm sorry for thinking this way.. but i was just wondering . ~~ Damn .. have to go for work .. blog some other time .. i can actually go on and on and on . Just like how Laguna ( final Fantasy 8 ) who can talk and talk non stop . And very sian man .. have to see punks later ... hope i don't get into any trouble ...

posted by Ben @ 2/20/2004 09:50:00 PM