rockin' my world.

The chapter closes .. A new one will open . A new story will start . ~ It was then or never .. the Final last time i will hear your voice . God did not open another path . He jolly well knew he shouldn't .. i could see why .. ~ So what if i set these 2 words " F*** you " esp for you ? bcos u deserve it .. actually , u should have been said right in the face . On the phone was letting you off a little too easily .. ~~ My friends ? yeah .. they only hear my side of the story .. and my side of the story is in fact the whole story . I'm never biased in saying bad things bout other people which the matter also may involve me . Never . You know it very well . Believe it or not . ~
it had to end this way ... i don't know why . I don't know why . One thing . u are killing my love . and u did finish the process ytd .. ~ you always accuse me of my attitude .. i just don't know why when in the first place it was you with the attitude . Bit weird huh ? it's like u are accusing yourself too .. ~ Today , when i was on my way back from City hall , i saw yong jun when the mrt reached Khatib station . Wow .. a primary school mate . Once we reached downstairs .. i suggested the idea of going back to primary school .. i wanted to have a nice talk with my p6 teacher .. and i dragged him along .. We headed for the general office first to check out her form class and time slots .. and we waited in the canteen as we were advised to .. we waited for some 10 mins .. and i just looked left .. and i saw her . buying a drink .. and i knew very well how to get her attention . All i did .. was to walk in her direction .. and immediately .. she turned her head .. and said " H b ? " i just smiled ... Yong jun was right behind ... he was a little shy and embarassed to see her .. i don't really know why .. ~ it was so long since i had a chat with her .. just wanted to tell her what's going on with all of us ... she was more likely to be disappointed .. cause most of the news were very disappointing ... i told her .. i was in the last class .. she couldn't believe . she learnt to accept it ... ~ i haven't seen that girl for quite some time .. i've lost my chance ytd .. she was smiling to me while she walked past me .. i thought she was smiling to someone else .. i was such a fool . i promise myself the next time i see her .. i would at least say a hi .. If she would be the one ... i believe GOd wouldn't let me lose the chance . There will be some time we would meet coincidentally .. and i would approach and chat with her definitely .. ~ i almost couldn't take it today .. i was sick .. i was fighting with my body . my eyes couldn't take it .. my head got some great pain and i just feel like sitting down but obviously i can't . i found out that ... today i was OFF !! my A manager perhaps had told me but i didn't take notice .. damn . if i knew that .. i wouldn't come . i forced myself to come . i was so tired that i could stand and sleep .. i slept all the way on the trip back . A bunch of kids were shouting and all that i was woken up by them .. and these words almost came out : " Ni NoW HianG eh , Ch** BY* , Shut the F*** up man ! PeopLe waNNa Sleep ! Ka Ni na Buey ... " and perhaps more la ! cause i was so so tired , i really needed some rest .. but .. kids . i must let it have it their way . my friends and i were noisy last time too .. so just let them have it their way . ~ Life .. isn't a bed of roses . Andy would always say this . Yes .. it's pretty true ... but we have to get on with life don't we ? in the each of us .. lies every different weaknesses within us . it's up to us to destroy that . No one else . ~ i really hope my choice is right .. and martin was right . God was right . it couldn't be wrong .. isn't it ? at least ... god is RIght isn't it ? ~ Ytd .. i didn't want to hang the phone .. cause i knew .. it was the last conversation btw us .. no ! i don't wanna end it like that .. no ! ! ! but God showed no mercy . That the situation would turn out to be like that . i have lost you . you have lost me . A result of our mistakes ... ~ New life . New story . A man is reborned . ~ from today ... i wanna live my life to the fullest .. cause , i only have one life . No else . Every great girl .. i may just grab ... unless i have a gf la ... i just wish so much that me and Lavina get closer now .. or perhaps Vivien ? not the vivien that u all know arh ... ~ Anyway , it's crystal clear . The end has come . we have ended it all . Quarrels ... crap .. laughter ... friendship . it's the end of all things . no . I should say , I ENDED it all . NOt you . Cause u tried so hard .... but is it ?

posted by Ben @ 2/24/2004 02:39:00 PM