rockin' my world.

Ain't Life full of surprises ? The moment i thought .. i had an angel in disguise right beside me ... the next moment .. i've found out that .. she's not an angel at all ... Due to this "angel " .. i met the King of devils along the way ... fought with him .. til victory was his. He terminated my spirit ... And gave me a new one . Evil . is what i have now ... ~ i'm very disappointed with life ... very surprised with u .. to see the real u through this period of bad times .. i should have known ,u were no angel .. How i wish we could have turn back time . So that i can amend ur mistakes earlier a few years back .. so things wouldn't be like that .. ~ i can't do anything .. but to let u go . Men are trouble .. perhaps . But am i really TROUBLe to u ? perhaps .. i have caused ur life to turn around .. u have teared for me . But i have teared for u a lot too ... ~ i must not be selfish .. i have to let u go . I must no longer demand anything ... i have to force myself to go . i'm very disappointed with what your friends had said ... cause this will only show one thing . i'm not gonna say . ~ My friends ... i just wanna spend more time with them .. but i can't . exams are coming ... i really hope for God to send an angel real fast ... to heal my wounds .. cause my heart is still bleeding .. and my time is running out soon ... ~ The day when u were so far and i tried so hard to catch up with u ... i failed . So i stopped .. and turned around ..and walked my way back .. ~ if i wanna let u go , i should forget u . i should cut all contacts with u ... it won't be easy at all ... heartbreaker . ~ i see a ray of light . I know .. my life will be better from today onwards ... but it's up to me , whether i help myself or not ... ~ History .. all that has happened will be pasted into a book called History . i will remember nothing until i open the book ... and i don't think i will open it . ~ Now .. cherish all that is around u . U have lost me due to that mistake . And of course , others . But sorry , time cannot turn back . Damage is already done . i was once holding on so tight .. but now my hands have let go . I rather fall .. and hope some angel pick me up .. then suffer . ~ Rx-7 . God is so creative in showing me things . Showing me the turning points of my life .. He gives me many chances .. and now , i don't wanna lose one . Fate based on a car ? bit dumb right guys ? If a Rx-7 ever appear when i'm out with my gf ... it only shows one thing . She's the one . ~ i can't wait to go to Japan also .. go to Akina . Ask a man to bring me downhill in a rX-7 .. i really wanna try that . Another dream is formed ... ~ i have so many dreams man .. be a pilot . To build balamb ( this is totally mad ! ) .. to allow the use of gunblades to take over guns . To buy a Rx-7 . To be a car racer .. to make Rx-7 famous once again . Or at least .. make Mazda . i'm considering a engineering course .. which will allow me to work in a CAr tuner company after i grad . Aeronautical .. is only for the money . I just wanna mean my family well ... ~ Life is full of surprises . Good or bad . i have to accept it .. and thursday ... i just need lots of luck . No , i don't need luck , Seifier would say . God has planned it . There is no need for luck since it's decided ...

posted by Ben @ 2/25/2004 02:15:00 PM